"You know I paid a lot of money for these pictures so I would remember that night forever. Now I'd pay to forget it"
That's what I told Sarah as I watched me and Erica's picture from prom go up in flames.
Getting rid of that helped but recently I have been remembering and seeing photos of last school year [2009-2010] and even though I don't wish to be with Erica at all, or even relive when I met the group, it still pains me to think about my entire Junior year at Vanden.
I wish there was someway I could forget the entire year. Nothing but grief came out of it. There are a lot of friends I'm glad I met, and I hope to see them next year, but I just wish most of that year never happened...
I'm just writing what comes to mind right now. I have a lot of mixed emotions. Sorrow, anger, envy, curiosity, and strangely a tiny glimmer of hope. 99.9% of my feelings at the moment are horrible and I just want to smash my computer against the wall. But that .1% is the hope that next year will make up for it all. As I'm writing this Jack is telling me it'll turn out the same as Sophomore and Junior year, ending unfathomable dispair, and unfortunately he is probably right...
If I can find a way to forget Junior year, I will not hesitate to take action.
You seem like a smart guy. High school is tough for some people, but it all comes around in college - when actually having a developed brain in your head means something. Then you will look back on your high school years like a distant memory and wonder why they hell you cared at all about any of that stuff. It's weird how that works out. You can tell me I was right in 5yrs.
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